Just because i had it worse doesn't mean i should settle for less.

 Yep. but what is less because i don't even know where's the bar. maybe i set it too high or maybe too low. I am still paranoid af about everyone, like they going to snitch on me and they do. I also can't keep a secret for God's sake. 

I have no friends.

I'm literally rawdogging this life with no friends, no love, no money, no good grades and what not. it's about time i ended my life. am i really that bad of a person to not deserve and keep a single good friend? they just keep leaving me. or is it really my fault. i don't know what to do anymore. i wanna go. i don't wanna be here. it isn't the worst place to be but back there i didn't have this much... wait i had it worse. at least its better now.